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- MEMORY.
- Memory is of the very stuff of Consciousness itself. Consider that we
- can never know «MDUL»what is happening,«MDNM» but only «MDUL»what has just
- happened,«MDNM» even when most actively concentrated on what we call "the
- present."
- Moreover, no impression short of Sammasamadhi can ever pretend to confer
- any coherent idea of the Self. That exists only in an order of
- Consciousness far deeper than direct perception, in a type of thought which
- is capable of combining the quintessence of countless impressions into one,
- as also of transforming this «MDUL»tabula rasa«MDNM» into a positive
- prehensile Ego. Whether this process be hallucinatory or no, it is surely
- memory which, more than any other function of the mind, determines its
- possibilities.
- Now, whatever view we may take of the nature of the Self, it is clear
- that our limit of error will constantly diminish as the range of our
- observations is extended. To calculate the orbit of Neptune from a period
- of days when it is retrograde could lead to formidable fallacies. When
- memory is seriously weakened, the resulting state approximates to dementia.
- Memory is then, in a figure, the mortar of the architecture of the mind.
- It seems impossible even to begin to discuss its nature as it is in
- itself; for it is not a Thing at all, but only a relation between
- impressions. We must be content to observe its virtues.
- First of all is that already noted, its extent in time. Second is the
- faculty of selection.
- It would be as undesirable as it is impossible for the memory to retain
- all impressions indiscriminately. Such memories are found only in lunatic
- asylums. The memory, whatever it may be, depends on cerebral metabolism;
- and it thrives on a proper harmony of exercise, repose, and economy just as
- does muscular strength.
- Memory as such is practically worthless; it is like an abandoned
- library. Its data must be coordinated by judgment, and played upon by
- skill; it resembles a great Organ which requires an organist.
- By classifying simple impressions, one obtains ideas of a higher order;
- the repetition of this process gives a structure to the mind which makes it
- a worthy instrument of thought. And this means enables one to retain, and
- to bring at will from their quiet resting-place, a thousandfold the number
- of facts which would overwhelm the untrained memory. One must model one's
- mind upon the arrangement of the ends of the nerve-fibres and the brain.
- At will! Here is the great key to proper selection, that one should
- resolutely remember all facts that may be useful, and as resolutely forget
- all those impertinent, to the True Way of one's Star in Space. For so only
- can one economise the mnemonic faculty; and this is to say: no man can
- begin to train his memory duly until he is aware of his True Will.
- There is then -- as in all matters pertaining to the intellect -- a
- vicious circle; for one can only become conscious of one's true Will by a
- judgment (of Samadhic intensity) upon all facts that it is possible to
- assimilate. The resolution of the antinomy is found «MDUL»ambulando:«MDNM»
- that is by the selective training above indicated.
- A further complication of this whole question appears during the
- practice of Yoga, when, the sheaths being successively stripped from the
- mind, one begins to remember not only long-forgotten facts, but matters
- which do not refer to the incarnated Ego at all. The memory extends in time
- to infancy, to one's previous death, and so further to an unlimited series
- of experiences whose scope depends on the degree of one' progress. But,
- parallel with this intensification of the idea of the Ego, its expansion
- through the aeons, there arises (in consequence of the weakening of the
- Ahamkara, the Ego-making faculty) a tendency to remember thing which have
- happened not to "oneself," but to "other people" or beings.
- Herein is one of the most irritating obstacles in the Path of the Wise;
- for the normal development of the memory in Time leads to a better
- understanding of the True Will of the individual (as he conceives of
- himself) so that he perceives an universe teleologically more rational as
- he progresses. To be compelled to assimilate the experiences of supposes
- "alien beings" is to become confused: the old hotchpot of Choronzon
- (Restriction be unto him in the name of «MDRV»BABALON!«MDNM») gapes once
- more for the Adept, who possibly supposed himself already (in a sense) a
- Freeman of the City of the Pyramids.
- But it is just this experience -- in default of any other -- which
- eventually insists on his undertaking to cross the Abyss: for the
- alternative to sheer insanity is seen to be the discovery of a General
- Formula comprehensive of Universal Experience without reference to the Ego
- (real or supposed) in any sense.
- This paradox, like all others, should be a lesson of supreme value:
- this, that every difficulty is for our vantage, that every question is
- posed only in order to lead us to an answer involving a triumph infinitely
- more glorious than we could otherwise have conceived.
- And meditation upon this whole matter may not unlikely bring us to this
- further vision of wonder: that the nature of things themselves is in
- reality but a function of Memory.